the last 9 hours have been rather odd.
they were just weird.
I started packing a bit for California and wrote the introduction to my essay for history.
and by, “i started packing a bit”, I mean that I generally packed my accessories and toiletries lol. I usually wait until the day before I’m going somewhere to pack, but I don’t think I should do that with this trip. I’ll be away from home for 9 days, I could forget a lot of shit.
anyway.
At the fundraiser tonight, I saw a lot of my graduating class and felt the same awkward/uncomfortable/I WANT TO PUNCH YOU ALL IN THE FACE FOR BEING SO RUDE feeling again and was happy to have a few people there who felt the same and didn’t, seemingly, want to punch me. Caught up with a few people and realized how much life has changed in the past 2.5 years. Listening to my used-to-be-peers talking as rude and judgmental as ever, I was basically thanking God I’ve become the person who I am today. The way some of them just looked at other people, let alone how they were still saying absolutely terrible things about people- eck. I’m so glad I’m not forced to be surrounded by them anymore. As much as I tried to make the best of high school, seeing these people reminded me why I didn’t cry at graduation and why I was so freaking excited when I left the school after project graduation.
I started feeling awkward like I felt in high school because of where I was placed on the social latter or whatever. I felt so uncomfortable and like the majority of the room was judging me, not because I’m generally paranoid, but because of the negative things I remember from high school. I don’t remember much from any year before the second half of senior year. ANYWAY. I’m so grateful to be out of there and away from those people. But catching up with a few distant souls was rather enjoyable.
ON A LIGHTER NOTE- A good friend of mine just texted me, freaking out about how my 14 year old sister is “kicking his ass” in words with friends. My initial reaction “omg this is the best text ever” and then… “it’s almost 3 in the morning, why is my sister still awake… and playing words with friends… with one of my best friends…”
bahaha. Oh life. life, life, life, life, liiiiiife. You never cease to amaze me.
